Monday, September 13, 2010

At A Cliff's Edge

Characters: Johan Farrell (Saint) and Jean Farrell.
Notes: Pre-Project [A]esir timeline for Saint.

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“Get in there!”

Jean groaned at the muffled voice. He rubbed the sleep from his eyes with one dirty sleeve, adjusting his vision to the dimness of the cell that came to be his bedroom this past year. His and his brother’s that is. Keys jingled in the lock and a moment later, light shone into his dark world. He squinted at the light, shielding his eyes as he tried to focus instead on the body that was thrown roughly into the room.

“You will get what you deserve!” The man standing at the doorway bellowed. From Jean’s perspective, the guard had a round physique, almost ball like with four robust limbs and a shaggy red mane for hair. The rumpled uniform the older man wore was something he’d gotten used to seeing. Of course, that was a given. They were always escorted back to their rooms ever since that crazy stunt the siblings pulled off during their first week. But he reigned in his thoughts from a trip down memory lane, focusing once again on the guard as he sought to find a way to aptly describe the man.

...A dwarf. The wizard concluded and mentally smiled. From what he could see, the older man did have a beard that could rival one of those little men with a few more years of growing it out. And he had a gruff voice as he berated his brother, who remained silent and unmoving on the floor. Jean couldn’t help but let out a sudden laugh with the multitude of thoughts that suddenly came with listening to his incessant ranting.

The guard heard his laugh and stopped, looking at the other ‘prisoner’ sitting against the cell wall. “What’s so funny?” He demanded, clenching and un-clenching his fists.

Jean paused in his laughter, long enough to answer the quietly seething man, “Pardon me, my good man. But I believe I am laughing at the fact that you, a simple-minded grunt, would so boldly assume that we would simply let you bully us into submission.”

“Why you little...”

Jean looked up now, gracing the man with a small smile and an odd glint in his eyes. Whatever that glint was, the burly guard took a wary step back as his hand flew to the wooden mace attached to his belt. Jean continued in a singsong voice, his expression never faltering, “You aren’t a scientist for one, just a mere grunt who believes that you would be safe from harm just because we appear to be at our weakest.”

Then the man tittered, the laughter growing louder and more deranged with each moment that passed. He stood up, pushing himself from the wall and standing upright. Eyes of deep, emerald bore stared straight at the smaller man like he was considering whether to eat him or not.

“Don’t underestimate what we are capable of. If you do know what’s good for you, you’d do well to keep that door between you and us.” As if to emphasize the warning the deed he was about to do, crackles of lightning danced at the tips of his fingertips of one hand. “You would have been dead moments ago for even prolonging your presence in our territory, dwarf. So leave, unless you’d fancy a night with us.” The grin on his was positively gleaming with sadism. Jean took one menacing step forward and that was all it took for the man to completely step out of the cell, grabbing the door as he shouted at Jean, “L-Let’s see who’ll be laughing in the end!”

And with that, the door slammed shut, followed by the sharp click of the lock. Silence overrode the two occupants. The body on the floor had yet to show signs of life, but Jean wasn’t too worried. Not yet anyway. The sadistic gleam on his face slowly faded away, leaving only exhaustion and disgust as he stared at the door. He had to lean against the wall to keep from collapsing on his knees as what little strength he mustered began to ebb.

Moments passed. No other sound could be heard in the room until Jean broke the silence with his curt tone, “How long do you plan on lying there?”

A groan escaped the mess of hair, and body turned until it was lying on his side, facing the quiet man. Jean raised a brow at a boyish face so similar to his own, yet so riddled with bruises and small cuts. That face returned the blank stare with a painful wince every few seconds. “Well... that one could have gone better...” The body on the floor muttered.

Years of dealing with fellow pragmatic, egoistic mages had made Jean resist the urge to punch his presently less-than-sensible brother, settling for a roll of his eyes instead. Honestly...

“What did you do this time, Johan?”

Johan flashed a toothy grin at his twin. “I bit him.” Then he stuck out his tongue. “But that was because he kept telling me to ‘Move it!’ and kept shoving me forward until I was sure I could’ve tripped over my own feet. Demanding dwarf, if I--”

Jean cut his brother off. “You were tired and angry with the scientists being ignorant of your ‘fragility’.” He stood up from his spot against the wall and dragged his brother by the wrists, ignoring the squeaked protest of pain from the younger man. There wasn’t anything Jean could do, he didn’t have enough strength to carry him properly after his own ordeal earlier that day.

He pulled Johan to his own spot and gently raised him so that he half-laid against the cold stone wall. “After enduring the stress of today, you did the most intelligent thing you can do to assault the guard sent to pick you up.” The wizard concluded his earlier statement.

“Fuck yeah and it felt good too!” His twin sounded almost proud of it.

“Language, Johan.” Jean lightly scolded. He sat beside his brother, running a hand through that unruly hair and thought belatedly of a comb. They both needed one badly. He wondered if he could snitch one off somewhere when he’s going to be taken to the laboratories again tomorrow.

Johan snorted, tilting his head up with a grin plastered on his face. “Meh, who cares? And were you actually serious about zapping the guy to death?”

“I was obfuscating weakness, using most, if not all, the factors of a semi-deranged, morally uninhibited test subject to pull off what is a bluff to the intellectual eye, but a fearsome and convincing act to that of a simple minded fool.” Jean replied blandly, as if it was the most obvious thing in the world. He added with a small shake of his head, “I don’t even have the strength to cast a simple Sight spell.”

“Well if you ask me, it was better than what you did the other day.” The wizard half of the siblings could practically feel the teasing insult his brother put behind those words. A vein throbbed, his otherwise calm demeanour being poked at by his sibling.

“Don’t bring it up, Johan.” He said slowly, warningly. He stopped running his hand through his brother’s hair and let it fall to his side. “Don’t you dare.”

“Aw, Aniki. I’m shocked and hurt by that.” If there had been enough light in the cell they shared, Jean would have seen that all too familiar look, dubbed as the “Kicked Puppy” by their mother when she was still alive.

“But oh dear, oh dear, how feminine was that slap! Maybe if you had a glove, it would have been even more interesting! Is that how wizards do it?” Dear Odin, how did anyone ever mistake his taunt-happy brother to be anything like him?

“You are really asking for it, little brother!” Jean growled a warning, but at the same a wicked gleam shone in his eyes. Unfortunately, the dim cell did not let Johan see that. The priest grinned, sitting up and giving his brother a light shove.

“Pimp slap!” Johan teased one more time before he was pounced on and had his ticklish spots assaulted mercilessly.

“Aha, you little fiend! You think you can best your obviously better half?” Jean laughed, pinning his brother the way he used to such that he couldn’t evade from his ticklish hands. “Maybe in a million years, but not now! Oh you are so going to pay for that.”

“A... aniki...”

Jean would have continued tickling his brother, that was until he heard the pleas in between gasps of breath. He got off quickly, seeing Johan instantly curl on his side, gasping and coughing painfully.

“Johan? Johan! Odin and the Aesirs, I’m sorry I forgot!” Cold dread ran down the wizard’s spine as he reached out and rubbed a hand across his brother’s back, hoping to Valhalla and back he was alright. Each moment that passed felt like hours, and even when Johan finally calmed and was only catching his breath, the dread Jean felt never left.

“Johan... talk to me. Please.”

The younger man wearily blinked up at his twin. “I guess... that last one... made me more dizzy than before.” Johan laughed weakly. “... They’re getting less careful with us, aren’t they?” Jean didn’t want to think what sort of carelessness the bastards had done to his brother.

“Can you heal yourself?” Jean’s eyebrows furrowed in concern when he saw the shaking outline of Johan’s head. The younger twin answered, “Kinda... tortured me. On top of that, they hit me with a Soul Siphon... just a weak one though.” He re-enacted the scientists’ earlier actions with a weak gesture of his hand.

Jean mentally cursed. Soul Siphoning... Those bastards! He hoped they all die a painful death. Amidst his ramblings, the wizard lifted up his brother. Despite his exhaustion, he carried Johan the short distance to the only bed in the room, and then carefully laid him on his back.

“Aniki... I’m fine.” Johan protested, turning to face his brother.

Jean could only return his statement with a solemn sounding sigh. He wasn’t convinced. “Stupid brother, get some rest.” He muttered, ruffling his hair. He sat down again, leaning against the bed and returned to contemplating his thoughts in silence.

“... I’m sorry.” Johan whispered, his voice low and hoarse. The priest turned on his side, eyeing the back of Jean’s head. The wizard tilted his head, but did not look at him. “Sorry?”

“For making you worry.”

Jean snorted, averting his eyes at some point on the floor. “You don’t need to apologize. This is what we do best, remember? Making each other worry... being there for each other...” The older twin replied, a note of wistfulness finding its way into his voice. “Nothing will ever change that.”

“Even with all this crazy shit happening?”

A low chuckle escaped Jean’s throat. “More so with this crazy shit happening. Now sleep, you stupid brother of mine.”

We only have ourselves to rely on.

The priest could not find the words to properly reply to that. But he felt, he didn’t need to. Jean already understood and knew.

Slowly he allowed fatigue and exhaustion to finally overtake him. In the fog of sleep that was gently washing over his sense, he faintly heard the click of the lock and the sudden snap of Jean’s head towards the sound. The creak of the door sounded so far away, yet he was still here, just barely. Light seeped in through the door, bringing more luminosity into the darkened room with each moment it widened. Was the guard back to harass them? Perhaps bringing a few more friends to back him up?

Coward.

He turned his head ever so slightly at Jean, noticing Jean’s whole form tensing at the person who entered their cell, but what really told him that it wasn’t a guard coming to torment was the extremely hostile look in those tired eyes. He felt the hairs on the back of his neck shoot up at the sudden change in the room’s atmosphere.

“Faust.”

His brother uttered.

END ENTRY.

Sands of an Hourglass

Note: An old story about my character pre-entrance to REM, or to-be-character of the RP group she was intended to be used for. Either way, my character remains an original and so does her history. She is who she is even if she may never make an appearance.

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Tick... tock... tick... tock...

Time didn’t stop for anyone. Time didn’t reverse itself for anyone. It maintained its steady forward pace, never looking back, never caring who it leaves behind. It ruled the lives of men with no end of its reign in sight. What could these beings of the flesh do? They were only mortals and could not go against its flow no matter what. But it did not make a few hopeful dreamers stop wishing for that one miracle.

And until a week ago, he hadn’t believed he would be one of those foolish men.

He steeped his hands together, placing his elbows on either lap. The clock on the bedside table continued to tick, the sound echoing in the deathly quiet room. The young man remained as still as a statue, sitting against the wooden chair. His eyes never left the slumbering woman’s gaze, daring not even to blink lest he missed something of great importance.

The bed’s occupant was still, too still to merely be asleep. But the soft rise and fall of the blanket was enough to tell anyone that she was still alive. Her chestnut hair spread around her like a brown halo against the stark white pillows. But her skin was too pale, and there were dark circles under her eyes.

The moment he saw the broken door, he knew something was terribly wrong. Nearly throwing himself into the apartment, he almost tripped over a man with a knife driven deep into his back. But that wasn’t what bothered him the most. The floor had drops of blood that came from the corpse. It led all the way to the living room, and he followed the trail with his heart sinking with each step he took.

The memories burned guilt into him. He should have been there. If he hadn’t let anger cloud his judgment earlier that day, he would have been able to prevent this from happening.

If only he had. If only he had...

“I’m sorry...”

He buried his head into his hands, feeling his eyes sting from the tears that wished to spring forth, but that he could not bring himself to allow. The memory of her fearful eyes and blood stained body would forever be etched into his mind.

Oh God. There had been so much blood...

“Physically, she’s doing better, but we can’t say the same for her state of mind. Slipping in and out of that coma, the next time she wakes might be her last.”

What use was the body if the mind would never recover? That was the hidden question in the doctor’s words. He pushed that depressing thought away, looking towards the girl in bed with such a heartbroken look on his face. She’d been so alive months back, but depression had hit hard and now cruel fate had dealt another so soon.

Alize, the lithe bundle of energy of a woman who he had grown up with... dying? He didn’t believe it the moment those words floated into his mind. He wouldn’t, not unless she herself would say it with all the seriousness she was capable of.

Please... He silently prayed. Please don’t leave me.

A shift of the blankets made him hitch in his breathing. His blue eyes watched every single movement that the bed’s occupant made. Her eyes opened to mere slits, allowing him to see a pair of hazy grey orbs staring blankly at the ceiling with barely any recognition in them. It pained him to think that she might not respond to his voice, that she would remain like this even if she manages to fully awake from her coma.

“Alize.”

That was the first word that came out of his mouth. He couldn’t stay silent for long and just watch her. He just couldn’t. It sounded so cold, so void of emotion though inside, he was furious and despairing at the same. How could he still sound so when his love was right there, the sand grains of her life running thin? She turned her head towards him. After what seemed like an eternity, those eyes slowly widened and the last vestiges of sleep fell.

“Seg...” She wordlessly mouthed the single word. She struggled to pull a bandaged arm from under the blanket, a feat that proved difficult. He saw this and reached out a hand to take hers, placing it on the blanket and rubbed it soothingly. The girl sighed, thankful. The soft patter of rain against the window mingled with the steady ticking of the clock.

“... Seg, are you mad at me?” She asked him, her voice hoarse from sleep. His gentle caress never wavered, even as he bent to place a light kiss on her pale, chapped lips. As he lifted his head, she caught sight of the sadness in those eyes, mixed with a hundred other emotions she could only name in silence.

But most of all, she recognized forgiveness in them.

There was no need of words to know his answer.

“I wanted to say it.” She spoke despite the pain welling up in her throat and eyes. Tears streamed down the sides of her pale face as she forced herself to continue, “I wanted to say it before I sleep, maybe for good this time.”

Whatever words he wanted to tell her caught in his throat. His expression reflected the surprise that he felt inside. So Alize truly was...

“I don’t know... h-how long I can hold o-on...” She stuttered, her breath catching in her throat as she desperately tried to keep her voice steady. He kissed her forehead again, caressing her cheek. “It’s alright. It’s alright.” The man whispered over and over again, for the benefit of Alize and himself. He kept his emotions locked up inside, afraid that once they had an outlet, it would all come crashing down. He had to be strong for her.

“I was the fool, Alize. If I hadn’t left you there, none of this would’ve happened. But it’s over now. It’s over. We can go back to the way we used to be.” He placed his forehead against hers, whispering to her, “It won’t be long. You’ll get better soon.” Selfish. So selfish.

“I will?” There was an almost childish hope in her tone.

He hesitated, pursing his lips as he placed some distance between them. He stared at her face, the once vibrant eyes now slowly clouding over with the haze of sleep. It was half a lie, he knew that. But he chose to believe in a fantasy rather than what reality had coldly offered to him before his very eyes. Seg nodded his reply, watching as her lips broke into a tired smile.

“Seg...?” Her words came out light and breathy. He almost hadn’t heard her. Seg scooted the chair closer to her bed. “What is it Alize?”

“Our first book...” She mumbled her reply, failing to stifle the yawn that followed. “I’m dreaming of that world... more often now... Could you read it to me? Like we used to?”

He nodded, unzipping his bag and pulling out a children’s storybook.

Like we used to. He repeated mentally as he flipped to the first page.

When he told her stories, she would draw pictures of that world he shared with her. A writer and an artist. Most had said they made a good couple. He had believed that as well. But now, that reality seemed impossible. Still, he wouldn’t give up. It would pain him to simply let her go.

He continued to tell her the story, his gentle baritone tone filled each word with feeling that stirred her thoughts, cradling her as a mother would rock her child to sleep. The words were like melody to her ears. She rode on them, falling into silence and allowing her imagination to recreate the blades of grass bending gently from the breeze, the multitude of butterflies fluttering about the flower fields, the majestic mountains lying beyond the horizon, the rolling waves on the sea that separated the shore from those mountains, and the aurora painted skies that looked like they were forever stopped in the moment between dawn and dusk.

This was the world she and him shared. That would never change.

Gently, she followed the compelling call of sleep, of whose hands brushed against her brow and took her by the arms, gently ushering her into the darkness behind it. Vaguely, she could feel the shift of the blanket, an item being placed beneath her limp hand and the soft touch of lips on her own. She mustered the strength to open her eyes, but all she could manage was a tiny slit. She saw the outline of Seg as he walked towards the door, pausing a moment to look back at her bed before opening the door and walking through it. She couldn’t hear the sound of the door closing in behind him.

“I love you, Seg...”

She couldn’t even hear her own words as she fell to the arms of sleep once again, continuing to dream of aurora filled skies and the caress of the wind at her face.

Tick... tock... tick... tock...

Went the beat of the clock on the bedside table, its steady and never ceasing thump the only sound that broke the silence of the room.

end entry.